is this for real?

and someone screams inside my head-hey there prick of course this is for real.what did you think?that it dosent happen to people like you?that you would only muse about it and never actually get the chance?that you would always stand in the crowd and scream your approval when what you really want to do is be up there exhorting people around you to scream their approval for your stuff?that your one wish of singing your heart out infront of all for yourself would remain a pleasant dream?

well goodluck...cause you had your chance of turning back.and you didnt.now you better get your ass moving cause tommorrow is a new day.and tommorrow you begin.goodluck.

i tell myself.

(tommorrow i begin to practice with my band.we plan to go onstage for a fest coming up in a few days.)